[ NOV 30 ] [ 2014 ]

where did november go omg

warm up doodle with miku whEEZES

sHUUEN NO SHIORI WIP TEHEPLZ

okface i got work early so

[ NOV 29 - 30 ] [ 2014 ]

* 7*)9

hahaha ah yes. aiyana. go on plz. what a loser girl.

working on a fake pv ahahaha here's a wip

aND MORE WIPS

yES and the next part tehe

i think about this girl a stupid amount but i think it's 'cause she fascinates me- i'm usually really good at analyzing ocs and figuring them out but i thought i had rosa figured out. and she reacts completely differently to a situation/topic than i was confident i had her figured out in.

i imagine she was prolly just sweeping, doing her chores, when the realization hits really randomly. sort of like when you remember a joke during a test.

i WAS STUPIDLY HAPPY WITH HER FACE OK

uhm ya rieka told me to draw steven and so here it is

this made has made me a wreck

have some s bc he breaks my kokoro

aHAHAHA 6AM GOOD NIGHT

[ NOV 28 - 29 ] [ 2014 ]

wHEEZES

uHM YA CRAY OF THE DAY WENT TO KUROHA FROM KAGEROU PROJECT YA ok so i included konoha by e

* 7* TEHE KANAME'S BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP REAL SOON! tho she hasn't been met yet in the story, oopsie!

just smth for a lil side project tehe!

yAAAA JUST TESTING SOME SHIT

OK NIGHT

[ NOV 26 - 27 ] [ 2014 ]

; v; Aw thanks, Aku! Ahaha idk what I'm looking for either. I guess a place I can easily lose myself! That or I need a new hobby, lmfao! Time to go back to learning Japanese so I can wander new sites hehehehe. I think I might do that tonight!

* q* BEEN THINKING ABOUT DANGAN RONPA but damn does everything kill the gif quality. ahahaha, but i did draw it kinda big!

junko enoshima from dangan ronpa hehehhe

i drew all the new pkmn ocs of mine and rieka's cray bc lets be real one of them is probably a yandere or yangire

iM TIRED SO YA //MOONWALKS OUT

[ NOV 25 - 26 ] [ 2014 ]

gOMEN FOR BEING GONE FOR SO LONG AHAHAH been doing a lot of tradiart but anyways???

smh idk. online life makes me more or less depressed and upset. i'm so much happier offline? i'm not sure what it is, i'm definitely happier away from tumblr as well as hiding from my public twitter for a private one.

i think i've hit that stage in my life where i realized everybody i care about has already taken off in their own directions and i'm left behind. thing is, i'm older than everybody else. so on top of having very few people to rely on anymore, i'm very far behind in life from my peers. it's depressing.

honestly, the thought of deleting everything and finding a new site to wander brings me great joy. the moment i find a good site, i think i'm going to for sure delete my public/art blogs and maaaaaybe keep my fandom blog. since that's a separate account and it's mostly just fanart i see.

as for twitter, i only don't want to delete it because it has a lot of pictures since 2011. and no real way to save all those pics. 8( so i guess i'll just hang out on my private twitter till i feel strong enough to chill with people again.

idk man. being online is making me angry and antisocial. maybe i'm just frustrated at how stunted my growth is socially and artistically. especially with amazingly talented people around me that seem to just charm the pants off people and have people just come up to them. i have neither skill. i don't live a very fulfilled life. i'm not a very good person. i guess this is karma for something i've done in the past. a punishment that's not one that gets empathy, one that people can say "'well just talk to people and practice more!""; one that can put the blame on me and me alone. what a punishment. what did i do in a past life lol!

oh well. i only got one life. it'd be easier to get hit by a car and die, but that's asking too much for a simple way out. and if i've learned anything about myself, it's that i'm not very good at taking the simple way out. i make everything overly complicated. and somehow, the thought of not being able to bring joy to people's lives but maybe misery, annoyance, frustration? somehow, that makes me feel a little better?

if i can't do one, i might as well be myself and do the other. not a whole bunch i can do, lmfao. my very existence seems to be brushed off so what does it truly matter what i do? i hide easily in the crowds and when i think of it that way, i do get a smug little grin on my face. what can i do with such a power? oh well. the most i'm going to do is struggle to find my voice and my smile. ones that i can be proud of; not ones that prove i'm existing.

but that's enough of that hehe!! i haven't gotten so personal on this blog in such a long, long time. again, only a couple of people actually read this, and it's basically people i don't mind knowing these clouded feelings. so i guess i really don't care talking about these things on such a public blog; when it comes to me, my feelings and my thoughts. well, no matter how public they're broadcasted, they remain pretty private. which is kinda neat-

U vU trying to design a new pkmn oc tehe.

tEHE SOME MARY in meme outfits uhh winter and fancy clothes!!!

aND YES VERY GOOddD!! it's not their birthday yet, but kalino and kalina's chibis for their birthdays! ^ q^ december 1st is when they celebrate!

hI YES THIS IS SARAIAH she literally was made for one of rieka's ocs bc im not letting an ojichan go unloved ok BUT I ENDED UP RLY LIKING THIS GIRL

also hell ya age differences

and ya CALL HER RY PLS and this is her and her raichu ok ya im tired

uHM YA ANYWAYS. U vU anybody who DOES read my rant, don't worry about me. i feel better after letting off some steam. but for reals tho. if you know another site to wander that'll replace tumblr that replaced deviantart that replaced gaia online in my heart lols, that'd be grand smh.

oK YA G'NIGHT

[ NOV 16 ] [ 2014 ]

YAYAY

ok yes good started the day right with some kenjirou from kagepro

oK YES have you ever seen this post?? OKAY YA GOT A REQUEST like 8 months ago or smth lols gomen ne FOR KONOHA WEARING HIS SUSPENDERS CORRECTLY so now i combined them. may konoha give you the strength to do what you need to do.

uGH UGH UGH RAIDIN AND MACI ARE MY EVEYRTHING PRECIOUS ANGEL CHILDREN UGH

pkmn ocs like wow they all grown up hELP ME

tHEY STARTED AT 14
KNOWN EACH OTHER SINCE PRACTICALLY BIRTH

NOW THEY IN THEIR 30S AND MARRIED AND GOT KIDS WOW happiness i hate these two

they definitely married their best friend... ugH SO CUTE.

okface got an early day tomorrow so gniGHT

[ NOV 14 - 15 ] [ 2014 ]

tODAY STARTED SO HAPPY WHAT HAPPENED

ocs

ocs happened

ok who let this boy on the court wow he needs to be stopped

what a liL MONSTER FOR REALS THO ok ya lols but i think hes one of the more docile ones and that's the sad part

uGH WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK THIS STARTED SO CUTE AND HAPPY WTF HAPPENED this is what ruined my life night

right before; arata/asami JUST BEING MOE AND CUTE OK B'AWWW

not on the lips; z/kaisho wOW Z IS V LOVING AND FRIENDLY KAISHO DUNNO WHAT TO DO PLEASE STOP????

interrupted; shinya/kyrie WELP SHINYA GOT FOUND OUT ABOUT HIS CRUSH RECENTLY SMH THIS BOY IS SO PUPPY CRUSH LOVE WITH HER WOW sighs he tries his best to get the courage but he a pansy he is sorry. but he cant help but wanna spend time together so his sister helps him out EVEN IF SHE FUCKS UP SOME TMIES completely on accident

refused; akito/suzuki gOD BLESS THIS BOY'S HEART FOR TAKING CARE OF HER?? SHE LITEARLLY IS DYING and he falls in love with her anyways and ya ok its rly cute help me.

false alarm; ritsuka/shoji sUDDENLY THINGS GOT NOT SO CUTE AND SHOJI THOUGHT RITSUKA WAS GONNA KISS HIM but he was just coming in real close to let him know he gonna kill him oh okay man. phew. shoji was scared. one of the two obligatory trash ships we decided to add.

wrong atmosphere; daniel/rosa tHE OTHER TRASH SHIP WE ADDED tbh it's hard to choose a trash ship for daniel there are so many??? even with ruth it's a  trash ship somebody save her?? idk man daniel can be with ruth or rosa or nora or wil or even gilbert and im ok with that iT'S ALL TRASH AND SOMEBODY IS AFFECTED BY IT I LOve

losing courage; suki/yuina lOOK AT THESE CUTIES AHAHAH I THINK ITS RLY CUTE TO IMAGINE THEM WANTING TO TRY KISSING A GIRL SO THEY TRY EACH OTHER?? CUTE LIL ORPHANS LMFAO. and they get all shy and giggle but eventually do it. ' v' it's nice. girls are warm and soft! but yuina already has a boyfriend. her big brother. and she's not kidding, theyre really dating LMFAO

"this is good enough"; axis/raii fUCKING SLAY ME HERE IT IS THIS IS WHAT RUINED MY NIGHT WOW this fucking story makes me so depressed. ' v' ugh axis gave raii his scarf bc wow this is the person he loves the most im so upset. :((((( why did they all have to die ugh hE CANT KISS BACK ANYMORE HIS BOYFRIEND IS DEAD ugh bans myself

OKFACE IM A LIL TIRED and i wanna replay p4 ahahahahaa SO GNIGHT GOT WORK TOMORROW ANYWAYS!!!

[ NOV 12 ] [ 2014 ]

tHE EARLY DAYS NEVER END

uHM YA TRASH JIN ok g'night

[ NOV 11 ] [ 2014 ]

^ q^ happy pocky day

uHM YA hibiya/hiyori (ish) pocky day special but konoha gotta ruin it.

spoiler alert he saved hibiya from getting his shota heart crushed more by hiyori //kagerou project

oKAY YA CRIES GOT WORK EARLY SO!!!

[ NOV 9 - 10 - 11 ] [ 2014 ]

gOMEN I WAS LAZY TO UPDATE MY BLOG LAST NIGHT LOLS

p SURE I DIDNT' UPLOAD THIS YET??? KUROHA GETTING BEAT UP  b ye

a LOT OF BOAT STORY DOODLES

mostly about recent developments

and then our youngest boys playing marbles

also daniel/ruth so fucked up oh my fcking god helP THEM GIVE THEM SOME JESUS

tEHE DID A DRAW MEME OK blushing faces meme ///

randomized all the stories ive made/helped create and then randomized the charas from each story that landed within the square! ^ 0^

OKFACE MUST SLEEP SO TIRED GNIGHT