[ NOV 10 ] [ 2016 ]

T____T I have another toothache??? Gosh darn diddly and my dentist is apparently leaving in the next month so I'm a little fcked over.

tHIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A WARM UP DOODLE BUT I GOT TOO INTO IT. Anyways, #PROBLEMATICFAV Drake bc one time he called his friend Daddy  LOLING dhfkldjshfkdjshfdsf. I wish to practice drawing muscles more, he's not ripped but he's a dancer so??? He's gotta have smth.

Also I fcking love his belly button piercing thign??? IT'S SUCH A CHARM POINT ON HIM??? I think his friend likes it too haha~~

DFHDKSJFDF ANYWAYS HERE'S A SONIA~ showing off the goods to Soren bc she subtly, and yet not so subtly, flirts with him. Too bad he's stupid. ^ q^;;;

OR MAYBE HE NOTICES BUT ISN'T QUITE SURE?? OR IS LIKE I'M READING TOO MUCH INTO IT. Bc that's really possible, too.
BUT YES HORRIBLE TOOTHACHE that honestly doesn't hurt in the tooth but up high in the gums? I'm reading it could be sinus toothache and that sounds //awful// oh my god.

GONNA TAKE PAIN MEDS AND ANTIBIOTICS AND SLEEP WEEPS!!!

[ NOV 7 ] [ 2016 ]

FDHLKDSHFS MY LEGS HAVE BEEN ACHING SO MUCH LATELY?? Maybe I need to stretch more.

SO. I DON'T LIKE SHIPPING MY OWN OCS WITHIN COLLAB STORIES, and I wouldn't call this a shipping of mine, BUT.

I mean, lets get the /facts/ straight.

Lexi broke up with Carter due to his inability to maintain her happiness and worth in their relationship.
Lexi and Jack have a very friendly, familial relationship. She's basically Mom Friend to him and he acts like a young son. Top this off with Jack seeming to be aromantic or at the very least, incredibly uninterested in romance at their current age.
Before the third class comes to the island, there's only 6 others stranded: Lexi, Jack, Kyle, Carter, Davis and Grace. Davis and Grace have barred themselves off from the others as they were part of the first class, not the second like the others. Lexi, Jack and Kyle basically become their own mini unit and depend on each other for survival.
Lexi is your very average girl- she wants love, affection and kindness. She wants to be a teenage girl and live her teenage girl dream. It's not the idea of family and all that she strives for- it's the passion between two people she desires. This is something she got a taste of through Carter.

BUT OK, CONSIDERING THAT JACK, LEXI AND KYLE WERE STRANDED TOGETHER FOR 2 YEARS.

I don't think Lexi, at that point in time, could bring herself to romantically engage with Jack. A large part of it would be that she feels that's disrespectful to Carter? And that going for Jack feels very awkward? Carter and Jack are best friends, and they had a play family. Carter being dad, Lexi being mom and Jack being their son. I think that at their young age, it's hard to let go of that idea because there's no moving forward for them.

But Kyle is our outlier. He was not acquainted with any of them until after the death toll rose. He took it upon himself to join up with Lexi and Jack and even protect them. He truly befriends them and cares for them and puts himself in harm's way for them both.

Okay, YA, I MAKE FUN OF KYLE A LOT, BUT. He's a very honest, down to earth and sweet boy? Sure, he has problems letting his face change (he's got some dead pan ass face tbh), but I think his actions and words definitely contribute to people realizing he's not some scary angst emo teen lol.

LATELY, SOMETIMES, I QUESTION, IF LEXI EVER MAYBE LIKE. FLIRTED??? WITH HIM??? I mean, clearly she's single. CLEARLY HE'S SINGLE. And LBR, the human body generally craves things it enjoys; romance and sex is a very common thing to crave.

But if I flip it, I'm like WHAT WOULD KYLE DO...? On one hand IS SHE... FLIRTING WITH ME?? DO I GO FOR IT?? <-- ...="" am="" and="" as="" carter="" considering="" crazy="" eye="" for="" get="" gingerly="" go="" goes="" he="" i="" into="" island="" it="" kyle="" like.="" looking="" more="" much-="" much="" nbsp="" of="" on.="" on="" or="" p="" passage="" perhaps="" progressively="" scared="" seems="" snapped="" squint.="" that="" the="" this="" thoughts.="" time="" to="" too="" very="" violent="" was="">
And ya. ME: BUT DID IT EVER HAPPEN, i have no clue. They're my OCs and ya... BUT IDK. PROBABLY NOT BUT I MEAN. IF I WERE ON THE OTHER SIDE HEARING THIS AND THE AUTHOR SAID "YA THEY HAD A FLING" I'd believe it, too.

OK GONNA EDIT THIS LATER BEFORE BED WITH MY USUAL NOVELS DHLSKJFDHSF!!!

OK BUT YES GONNA NOT BE SO MUCH A NOVEL BC I AM TIRED SOBS INTO HANDS??

this is how i imagine ayesha casts. ^ q^;; HONESTLY THAT'S REALLY IT-- idk if her chakrams change size or smth bc i imagine them the same size but when she casts, one fits perfectly inside the other?? and spins inside the larger one-

IDK ONE DAY ILL ANIMATE IT.

GRUNTS I HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO,

like sleep, this was just a doodle, gnight weeps

[ NOV 6 - 7 ] [ 2016 ]

^ q^;; I don't wanna go to sleep early, weeps.

IM CRYING I LOVE THIS GIF TOO MUCH

OK LEGIT THO,

Cyrus, the dude running, is probably considered the "main" bad villain not because of the power he holds (there's King Devil and shit ok dfhdkljshfdskf LOLS) but because of his relationships to the cast versus how tainted he becomes.

BUT THEN I DRAW SHIT LIKE THIS AND I FORGET HE'S ACTUALLY ALREADY DONE A LOT OF MORALLY WRONG THINGS. Anyways, here's Shitty Bear (TM) LOLING. hsfhkjfsf I LAUGHED SO MUCH MAKING THIS, I LOVE IT. The original GIF had red eyes streaking around but it almost gave me a seizure so that got removed real fast lol.

I aLSO LOVE TO THINK HIS GROUP DOESN'T TRY TO  HELP HIM THEY'RE JUST LIKE CYRUS WILL SURELY BE MISSED, //WALKS OFF

OK I'VE BEEN MEANING TO DO THIS FOREVER NOW, especially because I have my heart set on Keagan losing some fingers? And it slowly turned into a body horror piece? Very good.

I honestly really love mouths... a lot... //WHEEZES!! So honestly, most of my injuries Imma draw for everybody will be... mouth oriented... probably... ahaha...

Keagan gets to lose two fingers, but I was nice and did it on his non-dominant hand. I don't think it's really gonna teach him a lesson or anything, but boy, karma is sweet.

For Manny, I always imagined an up close fight being what's gonna give him a grave injury- probably with a person? THO if I imagined with a zombie, I think it's an actual bite and not just swinging wildly and got injured? Ya- idk wtf could take a chunk out of his cheek like that, but AESTHETIC.

Also I'm like... goD THAT WOULD HURT. Idk how Eason could even stitch that back up??? //PUTS A CLOTH ON IT??? OR LIKE?? WHAT DO U DO?? esp in the apocalypse.

And then for Aubrey, originally she was gonna get slit throat (bc she's already a selective mute might as well go the whole mile and just shut her up for good right) but Rieka saved her when I wanted a random girl and she chose Aubrey.

So in the end, she got a slit mouth. And tbh, like Keagan, I actually really wanna knock out one of her teeth dhfkldjshdf LOLS!!! I think it's 'cause she's a lil country bumpkin girl and tbh I think it'd be cute on her. Even if she just loses a tooth bc??? No proper dental hygeine?? Doesn't gotta be knocked out bc she fell or was hurt by somebody??

FOR SURE. WILL NOT BACK DOWN. KEAGAN'S LOSING SOME FINGERS. And I'm on the fence with Aubrey's teeth but it's not like it's something that's gonna be LIFE ALTERING so I probably will? Tho she already resents being a lil country girl, so that might put a dent in her confidence LOLS--

OFDHSFKJHSDF OK GOT DISTRACTED BUT I GOTTA SLEEP, GNIIGHT,

[ NOV 5 - 6 ] [ 2016 ]

FKLSDFJHKSDJF Been so tired lately, weh.

Drew a lil Aubrey cheeb ahahaha. Idk how I ended up loving this girl so much.

I think she could honestly go in one of two ways?? Like on one hand (the likelier path) I think she'll be a very friendly, honest person? Very loving, affectionate, very family-oriented. I think she allowed her guard to go down, especially because that's what she wanted all along. People that actually loved her, it was a craving that she's finally satisfying.

On the other hand, I do think there's a chance for her to become very cold-hearted and guarded again? She's lived a good chunk of her life in solitude and keeping to herself. Ya, she wanted friends, but at least she had her own imagination and Juniper to keep her company. That was more than enough; she shouldn't be greedy.

I feel like there's a certain path, if things work a certain way, she could end up being more... aggressive? No holding fire; no analyzing the situation. Kill it and call it a day. I'm guessing she'll have to be hurt enough to go this path; the loss of trust? Or feeling betrayed? Maybe even loneliness? Pushing people away to satisfy old habits?

If I had to take an educated guess, I'd say it depends on her family. If her support system feels like it's calling apart (in terms of, not being able to be there as much as she needs them to be), she'll end up locking up her heart to avoid whatever's bothering her?

Her first family already emotionally abandoned her; she already was fully aware that they looked down on her quietly, that if she were to run away one day, there wouldn't be a reward. Just a plea to come home and that's it, at best. It'd probably be more like a good riddance, she was a stain on their name anyways.

So, she ended up retreating into herself, her mind, anything that could keep her occupied. The apocalypse is harder to keep yourself entertained; it's probably why she puts a lot of herself into pictures and selfies.

Tbh she's had a lot of problems I don't think have been fully explored and solved. She's trying to work through them, but she needs guidance, support, and all that. Which makes her feel annoying, that she's so needy, and lessens her value in herself. It's a little cycle she's put herself into all her life that she's not quite sure how to get out of?

Basically... I think if she feels alone, she could honestly become a bad ass lol. She'd fully dedicate herself to training and learning. Which is sad that I'd love to see that side of her, but it'd mean almost throwing away all her relationships. Or at the very least, putting them on the back burner (and forcing them to put her on the back burner).

The good news is that she's probably gonna be really bland lol. I really do hope something happens that at least gives us a taste of her stepping up for herself (or others). I feel like she's got some potential, and maybe we can see it. You just gotta push herself enough till she decides it's time for a new approach.

Which is why I hope Keagan DOES hate her guts and tries smth bc I'd hope she shanks him in the face loling.

^ Q^ Boyfriend sweater???? Ish lol Raidin doesn't wear a sweater BUT THIS WAS GOOD ENOUGH, very cute ///

FHDLSKFDHSFSF DREW A SUKI!! ^ 0^ i honestly forgot how i came to the conclusion to draw her lol I THINK I WAS IN THE FOLDER AND WAS LIKE she's so cute???

I got a soft spot for them quiet girls with emotional problems fhdkjsfhsdf LOLS!!! The fact she's at a run down orphanage helps too I love that aesthetic hehe.

Firmly still believe her and Junpei are gonna form a lil unit and be important in their own ways- especially to each other? Which will affect Junji, so like... I'm not actually sure that's a good idea. O vO;; //WORRIES QUIETLY FOR THEM??

I can't recall if we said Suki doesn't die?? Or she does?? SWEAR RIEKA SAID SOME CHARACTERS DIED/OTHERS DIDN'T. I mean, that doesn't mean we can't change it if it feels right? But ya.

Need to get back into drawing... not AS crappy backgrounds... //squints!!!

I DON'T WANNA WORK TOMORROW- //LAZYCRYPLZ,

I still need to do my LL today, too... weh...

CRIES INTO HANDS, OK, SLEEP >:(

[ NOV 4 ] [ 2016 ]

I really want something sweet eat, I'm so sad. ; ^;

DREW SOMBRA BC she is finally official and it's very nice to have a Mexican girl in popular media, ahaha. It makes me happy, it's really true that kids want to see "themselves" portrayed.

>_> OK

im gonna go to sleep, weeps, im just so tired and worn out

i say that but imma game and possibly hop back online in a few hours hfdkjslhf LOLS

[ NOV 3 - 4 ] [ 2016 ]

^ q^;; These cookies are hurting my tooth, oh no.

HFDSKLFHSDF FINALLY DID THIS MEME LOLING???! With Mino's story!!!

Notice that rich girl Elly is using real money and Mino, meanwhile, has his Monopoly money loling.
You can assume Soleil and Rhea are safely off screen, not involving themselves in this idiot party lol.

hkhfKFHFDKJSFS FINALLY, DMITRI REVEALED! his true age, 15, instead of the age he portrays himself with his magic lol.

He uses his magic 100% to up his age, bc being an adult has way more advantages and perks than being a young teenager. In dire times in battle tho, he'll break his adult appearance to use his magic. The clothes don't shrink with him lol.

He basically goes from a 27 yr old man's body back to his 15 yr old boy body lol.

WHEEZES OK WORK IN THE MORNINGG gnight~

[ NOV 2 - 3 ] [ 2016 ]

You know when you wanna draw a ton of things but can't settle on one thing and then either draw nothing or a lot of really, REALLY low quality things? ;___; That's me.

Thinking 'bout how Alister is basically Ayesha's dad and that's so precious, I die a lil. ////

FINALLY I have drawn Soren with his white hair hfkljhkdshf!!! When you push yourself too hard with your Sentic powers, you'll get a physical affect- white hair. It can kill  you.

Soren pushed his body to the absolute limits with his healing ability- resurrecting somebody from the dead. Sure, they were a recently deceased (as in, only moments before), but it still was a huge task for the healer.

He survived, but ended up with a full head of white hair. Normally, you slowly push yourself, gaining white streaks before the full head. But he went the full mile, in typical Soren fashion.

It'd be a natural thing to do, too, as he was more concerned with saving Sonia than he was with surviving.

sTILL TRYNA GIVE ZUNA AN ADULT REF it's not working crying

^ Q^ MUTES! Rieka's Kosuke and my Aubrey~ Since we were talking about Kosuke's story and his muteness, ahaha

OK SOBS I DID'T WANNA STAY UP THIS LATE IM SO TIRED //FLOATS AWAY,

[ NOV 1 - 2 ] [ 2016 ]

HI YA'LL OCTOBER IS OVER so im no longer painfully busy. just regularly busy ahahah dump and run

hAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MOST SPOILED, ROTTEN BRAT OC, AIYANA!! After years of tryna pick a bday for her, it ended up being November 2!

It coincides with Day of the Dead celebration, which is ironic considering her own past and what becomes of her. So take today to remember those loved ones who have passed, ok? Remember them for who they were, not what became of them.