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TODAY WAS ALL ABOUT BEING SAD

OKAY FIRST THE LAST OF THE COMIC I POSTED YESTERDAY. Gonna see how far I can carry this thing!!

RIGHT THEN I WANTED TO DRAW CRYING BOYS god bless

hERE'S ALL THE BAND MEMBERS AS KIDS. Essentially Ruka was a bit more... not tsundere. She wasn't as bubbly? I think that grew in later! Ichiro was a lot more active (LOL). Shion was a lot more shy, and Makoto was just smaller. LOL.

WEEPS SO CUTE this is Mahiro, Shizuka and Natsuki playing RAPTORS. Those are jump ropes tied to their waists, it's their tails. Natsuki tried to play but they bit the shit out of him LOL. Essentially their childhood crushes started BACK IN KINDERGARTEN LOL KEPT THOSE FEELINGS TILL SENIOR YEAR.

i think mahiro started most of their fights as kids whispers but you know after he tugs her pigtails she's gonna fight back because she got a crush too.

OKAY THIS ONE MADE ME SAD. Shun and Arashi actually were friends as kids BUT SHUN FORGOT HIM ESSENTIALLY. This is before Arashi started acting weird, just himself. LOOK HOW CUTE AND SHOTA THESE TWO WERE.

HAHHHHHH THEN THE SAD STUFF STARTED.

Akari and Shun's dad died when they were younger. She was really young, but she recalls a lot of memories with him. In that box are a small pair of dancing slippers and some photos- of when she had a daddy/daughter dance with him. She feels like she shouldn't cry to Shun because it probably hurt him more, being older and being affected more by it than she was.

So she keeps those feelings to herself, and waits for when it's dark and safe to really let it out.

wOW BYE okay Reiji's been taking care of this old cat he found on the school roof since he lives with his grandparents who are allergic. He's been hiding them in a shed on the roof that was meant for the gardening club's roof garden.

I imagine he could tell the cat he took care of for four years was dying, stayed on the roof with it even during class, wrapped her up in his shirt and held her till she passed. The cat is a mom cat, with kittens of her own (betweeen 3-4 I'm debating). Now he has to take care of them by himself.

ArasHI MAKES ME SAD SUDDENLY. His family's been going through troubles, and his parents are fighting more and more. He hides it well that it hurts him quite a bit. Eventually, Tadashi reveals to Shun what's going on.

I think if he confronted Arashi about it, even in the sweetest of manners, this is how he'd respond. He's not wearing the headband or labcoat, and he's really downplayed. This is actually how he naturally is. Though when he's being weird, he's not acting either. Or more accurately, he's acting on his impulses finally. When he's normal, he's just ignoring them.

Really, h-he's okay...

AAAAND LASTLY THE RAPTORS FINALLY FIND LOVE

"No! No I won't get off, no I won't move! Stop trying to ignore me, stop it and listen to me! This is the only time I've ever asked you to do this for me, so please...!

Why compare yourself to your sister? Why compare yourself to your friends? Are they you? No. No, I can tell you that for sure. Mahiro is Mahiro. I would know. So you're shorter than your friends? You still tower over other girls! I have to even look up a bit to look at you! So your parents pay more attention to Amari than you? She's a college girl on her own! Their daughter, all alone in the world! And they're proud of her on top of that! You know what that means? When you walk up that podium and take that stupid diploma, you know your dad is gonna be there clapping his hands with that big doofy grin on his face! And your mom is gonna be clapping happily with big tears in her eyes! And your siblings are gonna be clapping and waving their arms! You know that's the truth, don't tell me otherwise!

A... and so what if that girl rejected you? Sh... She...! She doesn't... she's an idiot! She's an idiot for not seeing what she missed, and that's too bad! It... wasn't you at all. None of this is your fault, any of it.

You're not a loser! You're not! You know who is? It's me! For... for... being in love!

And for being selfish... I was... really... when I heard you were going to ask out that girl... I feel really sad but really happy. I'm... I... I don't... like... seeing you like this. It... it hurts, okay?! But... I'm also really happy... because... I... I-I was... really jealous. Jealous it was.... her... and not... not...

Fine! We'll be in the same boat! You got that?! W-we'll feel exactly the same, right here, right now! I was jealous it was her and... and not me! I was jealous because... because... I'm a loser... in love... with a boy... who hates... me. Who got rejected by a girl, but whose going to reject me! How big a loser does that make me then, Mahiro!? To be rejected by somebody like that?! S-so don't feel so down...! Don't... feel down... because... because somebody loves you. B-because! I love you!"