[ AUG 17 - 18 ] [ 2017 ]

Gosh idk why I'm so tired all the time??? TT;;;

HLSKFDSF WHOA I HAVEN'T ANIMATED IN FOREVER?? The still + gif version haha, I just wanted to see if I could still make pictures blink. I can. In like. 5 minutes flat lol. 

HAVEN'T THOUGHT ABOUT THIS STORY IN A LONG TIME. Rieka's Alicia!! I still think she'll end up being a villain in the end. :(

FHLKHJDSF SOME LUCA, wanted to try drawing him with a Raz bc?? Very kawaii?? I STILL QUESTON IF HE SHOULD HAVE AN ANIMAL COMPANION or a bird companion? If it's a bird, it's definitely the color of the feathers on his headband?

CRIES OVER THESE TWO EVERY DAY??? THEY ARE JUST SO??? depressing omfg, kassina and etzal. okfac.e

ok ok STARTED A MEME BUT IT'S NOT DONE so i'll upload when i finish it, g'night~

[ AUG 16 - 17 ] [ 2017 ] [ NSFW ]

^ q^;; Gosh I'm so tired, weeps! If you notice there's a really old post that somehow got to my most recent posts?? EVEN THOUGH IT'S FROM 2011??? 0_0

Headshot for Secca! My 16 yr old noble girl who sets out to find her older (half?) sister! ^ q^ She'll have clothes soon enough, ahaha.

AW YA I HAVEN'T DRAWN RITSUKA IN SO LONG???? It was nice to revisit him! I love his face and faces he makes??? //// Good shit.

I'm loling so much I drew this while having serious OC talk with Rieka fhadslkjhasf abOUT THIS KID ACTUALLY.

Anyways, I havne't really drawn nsfw in a while, did some Soren bc he's my fav to R18 up.

IT WOULDN'T BE ME WITHOUT DRAWING AIYANA AT LEAST ONCE EVERY COUPLE OF MONTHS. My first child, //moves Aubrey and Soren aside

loling at her lopsided head tho I LOVE IT,

SCREAMS OK IM TIRED and wanna play Fire Emblem ahahah OK G'NIGHT

| wip + commission |

Oh man I thiiiink I got all my financial debt paid. It's all a matter of the Department of Education receiving it and verifying it, the school sent it off this morning. FREEEEEDOM. /CRIES FOREVER/ It better damn well be accepted or I might be forced to kill somebody. 8(

Anyways, also paid off the vet bills I owed my mom. orz;;; Time to pull in more rl commissions. Waaaaah.

Speaking of which, here's a WIP I just sent off~! She's a commission, and an OC so no touching~! I hope by the end of tonight I'll  have her completed, shaded and blinking~!

In the mean time thoooouuugh~! Another rl commission, this time for YumeOkami @ dA. BTW GUYS IT'S HER BIRTHDAY (well atm since it's May 11th BUT WHEN I POST THIS IT'LL PROLLY BE THE 12TH) SO GO BUUUUUUUUUUG HER. 

OKAY NEVER MIND I'M TIRED. NIIIGHT. 

[ AUG 15 - 16 ] [ 2017 ]

FADSHFSF

^ q^;; SLACKING SO MUCH,

This is so hard to see, I'm so sorry. ;;; Some concept ideas for a new story! A village kinda floating in the water! Well, partially, part of it is on land, the rest on the water!

I would think that these floating homes are cheaper? Or maybe even "starter" homes for families/adults? Before you get the skills and money or whatever they use to get a landlocked home that's safer and less battered by the water and just overall easier to get to?

Or would these fancy homes be considered fancy living? I doubt you can make a really big extravagant home out there, but I don't think they really do that either? I definitely want at least a few homes on the water, but I really got my heart set on the market being a floating market!!

HLFKDSF rewatched Moana today, and Moana and Maiu still remind me so much of Aubrey and Judas omfg??? SHE NEVER SAID THANK YOU OK. GOD HDSFKSDF LOLS!!

Wanted to sketch them in honor of watching the movie~

^^ HAPPY KAGEPRO DAY I drew A-ya loling so much. I haven't thought about Shuuen no Shiori in a while, it's so sad.

LFDSFJSDF I didn't mean to draw Aubrey again, it honestly just kinda happened- IT WAS BETWEEN HER AND AIYANA??? but the face came out more sad and I think that suits her more than Aiyana.

Aiyana definitely more of a bitter/angry type? And Aubrey is more sorrow and sad type?

Anyways you know what else I think about other than my lovely huge novel? Like, always feeling selfish? Guilty? Second best? Over shadowed?

Even her own kids... I think, probably prefer Daichi over her? LIKE WHEN I REALLY THINK ABOUT IT??? I see those kids getting so excited to spend time with Daichi? Usually kids LOVE their mom, and I don't doubt they do, but if they get the choice, they pick their dad?? Even tho I KNOW she pours her love and soul into them...

LIKE IT JUST MAKES ME SO SAD?? SHE HAS SO MUCH LOVE IN HER HEART AND SHE WANTS NOTHING MORE THAN TO FEEL NEEDED AND WANTED, but she's always second to something else more important. There's always somebody else that's more important than her, something else that needs to be done that's more important. She'll always get the AFTER bit, the leisure time, the time that isn't occupied by something or somebody else?

I really think Rikuto was the ONLY one that really went out of his way for her- and even then, I bet it's because his relationship with Remi tanked. I'm sure had they had a loving, non questionable relationship, he'd spend all his time with Remi. It only makes SENSE to want to spend the mots time with your family- well, mostly. Aubrey herself is a testament that that's not always the case.

Like gosh... she's just so fucking pitiful... willing to take whatever you threw at her and was excited over it? :( Idk, maybe I'm just an Aubrey apologist, but seeing the story thru her eyes, my heart was just twisted and gutted the entire time. She was always THIS close to crying, but she never did, because she wanted to prove her worth and her value- to anybody. It's just... nobody paid attention.

And even if they did, they already knew she was useful. It was no surprise, and thus, she was skipped over. Always in favor of somebody else with more talent and skill in her areas of expertise. HOLDS UP HANDS.

Or maybe I'm just ya. Being biased. 8(((( Or maybe she deserved it, idk man.

FHSDKLFHSDF WENT BACK TO TRYING TO DESIGN HOUSES, tbh I already kinda know what Luca's house looks like LOLING WILDLY. mostly cause he's an orphan???? So he lives alone, easy for me to imagine his home???

OH GOD SO TIRED gnith