Oh man today I was worried about taking my laptop to work to work on my convention items. My liking anime and shit is a huuuuge secret. >____< I'm rather shy and kinda embarrassed by it. But it's 5 hours of sitting there, and quite frankly my DS was going to die and Layton's pissing me off because I can't find the remaining like 2 puzzles. >:
T____T I'm so happy they didn't make fun of me! The ones that noticed me drawing either said nothing or complimented me. /WAS EXPECTING WEIRD STARES AND SHIT DHAFLKJDH
And thus I got some keychains done. 8D
Oh random uhhh I've been doing profiles for my newer OCs: http://www.gaiaonline.com/guilds/viewforum.php?f=1151859
Idk Rieka hasn't done her's yet and I only got a couple up. >____< We still gotta patch up a lot of things!
Firstly~ I finished my Link keychain! * v* YAAAAAAY. Tee hee, he was kiiiinda a bitch what with all his details BUT I THINK I DID IT?
Completely finished an Izaya keychain. 8> I had to make up his switchblade because I didn't have a pic on hand of it. :c Also lol @ the yellow fluff on his jacket, IT'S SO YELLOW I GOTTA TONE THAT SHIT DOWN FHALKFDJHSF.
KAY THEN IT JUST WASN'T RIGHT WITHOUT SHIZUO. 'Cept fuck doing his sun glasses, do you see how big his eyes are? Can you imagine how big his sunglasses were going to be? HELL NO. Also made up that sign post since I know he has one somewhere or other idk SIGN POST I MADE UP. 8D His hair made me angst a little.
... I just really love this boy. Seriously. Ya'll can have N and his tree mullet thing going on. 8D I think Gold is adoraaaaable.
I wish I could draw him as adorable as he is. *____* Also I cannot friggin' soft shade for my life. LOOK AT THAT SHITTY ASS HAIR. DFHLAKDJHFDSF. orz orz orz
HOOOOLY SHIT I ACTUALLY FLAT COLORED THIS PIECE OF SHIT. DHFLAKJHFD. /EXCITED
orz;; Ignore the shitty bg I'm changing that so hard. I have no words to express my delight. I DID IT. DFHLKADSHF.
I might livestream some of this 'CAUSE LIKE I NEED HELP DECIDING A BG. OTL
SO TIRED. HALDKJF. /headdesk/
WILL TRY TO MAKE MORE KEYCHAINS AT WOOOORK 8D night guys
Omg I almost fell asleep at 9pm at a friend's house. T_____T I am very, very tired. Might even go to bed now, it's only 10:30! orz;; I got work tomorrow too, sooooo... /CRIES
At least the paycheck is nice! About $300 or so. >_____< All of it going to my convention! I just got paid this Thursday, so in two more weeks another check! It'll be the last one before my convention so I gotta make it stretch! The one after that will be the smallest since there's only 4-5 work days after that. ;____; MONEY I NEED YOU DFHAJKF.
Viv; ;//v//; B'AWWWW THANK YOU SO MUCH VIV! DHAKDJ I love designing OCs but like. orz Omg I get so nervous they're not great at all OR IDK LOL SO NERVOUS ABOUT DESIGNING HNNNNNNGH. /but loves doing it/ orz EEEEE NO TOUCHING SHE'S PROLLY UNDER AGED. AW YEAH. YEEEEEESU TOAN.
KAY SO GETTING BACK TO CON STUFF. DFHLAKJF I'M LEGIT FREAKING OUT. Thinking about taking my laptop to work to work on con stuff BUT LIKE MY WEEABOONESS WILL SHINE THROUGH SO LIKE IDK. orz;; Especially since I'd most likely work on the Naruto print. Jesus Christ. That's so embarrassing.
Anyways! This is my Rin keychain! * v* Tee hee, I didn't like the Len one I did. ;____; I gotta redo him. But I was pretty happy with Rin!
It just wasn't right without some Miku action though! 8> Tee hee, coloring her hair was hard but kinda fun! <3 I'm not as happy with her as Rin though. ;;;;
TEE HEE THE ONLY TIME RATRI'S NOT BEING TSUNDERE IS WITH DIMITRI because he's even more tsundere than her. KAY LET'S SEE A BIT ABOUT THEM AND THEIR RELATIONSHIP.
Ratri and Dimitri are the same ranking of demons, which comes as a surprise considering she's a lustful succubus and he's a blood thirsty demon. She hides a lot of her abilities to strike when nobody expects it. Either way!
Dimitri is her only friend, just as she's his only friend. They won't admit it- not very easily anyways. Ratri went missing nearly two decades ago, and needless to say when he's able to piece together what's happened to her, there's a lot of catching up to do. On her side, considering what happened to her, she doesn't have much to report. TEE HEE OH COME ON DIMITRI, YOU MISSED RATRI'S PLAYFULNESS~
Either way, she enjoys messing with him and making him upset and tsundere. It's fun, tee hee~! And really nobody else can do the things she does to him without some sort of repercussion, like a good smack to the face. TEE HEE SHE'LL BE NICE, DIMITRI, SHE WON'T SAY HOW FAR SHE'S GONE WITH HIM~! I think he likes it, so does Ratri. SHE JUST CAN'T HELP HERSELF, HE'S SO HANDSOME~ AND SEXY~ oh but most of all cute. 8> <3
Though idk why I bother with cute chibi art of them. They're a couple of killers deep down. 8(
OMG I ACTUALLY DID IT. I told myself "bed at 11!" because I was drop dead tired. And then I was like WELL I'MMA FINISH LINING THAT NARUTO PRINT. Midnight rolls around. I only have like, Asuma, Kurenai and the rest of Naruto to do.
It's 12:45am. orz gdi. LOL. WELP AT LEAST THE LINES ARE DOOOOOOOOONE YEEEESU gonna try to flat color tomorrow. >_______<
HNNNGH SO TIRED BED TIME EARLY FOR SURE TONIGHT. Uh let's see. Still haven't bought the second Layton game. OH DID YOU HEAR ABOUT THE PRICE SLASH FOR THE 3DS? I hope I have money left over from the anime convention coming up! I WANNA GET ONE DHLKADHFDF RESIDENT EVILLLLLLLL AHHHHH!
Enough of that. c:
ARE YOU HAPPY VIV?! Omg this looks nothing like the clothes you can get in game BUT I SAID FUCK THAT I MAKE UP SHIT AND I DIDN'T HAVE THE INTERNET WHEN I WAS DESIGNING HER ANYWAYS. 8D
Kay so this is Majiro! She's a hybrid half-animal, half-human, and that's not me being a weeaboo this time. :c I really wanted her to have guns and that fell under the hybrid section in the game! Yup~! She's my character on an online game, Iris Online! Though I haven't gotten to play for a while! ;____; So busy this week!
Uhhh let's see. Not much on her. She's level 21 I think in-game. A gun user for sure. c: Her title is [romantic] lol. AW YEAH. I see her being pretty cheerful and optimistic. * v* Maybe not hyper, but definitely upbeat and tries to keep everybody happy!
KAY SO I'M TOO TIRED TO DO ANYTHING ELSE. 8D NIGHT.
Today is my 250th post, guys! I can't wait for it to say I have 365 posts, I will throw a celebration! *_____*
Rieka; OMG I QUESTION RIMO SO HARD maybe he's bisexual or something. I MEAN I WON'T LIE HE'S VERY INTRIGUED BY ALYSSA, CALL IT WHAT YOU WANT. Can you blame him for being interested in her? She's a curious girl! BUT LIKE. SERIOUSLY. HIM AND SEDRIC ARE FAGGY ENOUGH TOGETHER, LUNON THE MAID OVER THERE MAKES IT SOME REALLY KINKY THREESOME, LOL. Oh and Levi. Wtf. Rimo and Levi, dying in arms. /LOLD
EEEEE I KNOW EXACTLY WHO LUNON AND SEDRIC COULD COSPLAY AS FDHFALKJDSHFSJDKF /WINKWINK
Viv; 8D TEE HEE YEAH TRYING NOT TO RELY ON SUCH THICK LINES~! /lol herp derp used size 4 brush instead of size 9 today~!!!!/ HNNNGH LOL ALYSSA USUALLY HAS NO EXPRESSION. Not so much bored or annoyed, but like. She's very blank. I TRY TO MAKE HER LOOK INTERESTED WHEN I DRAW HER. XD Or even maybe a little shy? Is that the emotion I was looking for? Something that clearly says "I'm quiet but not a bitch." BY LOOKS. LOL.
YOU KNOW I WAS ACTUALLY HAPPY WITH RATRI'S FOOT. LOL.
NOOOO WHAT WILL I DO AT WORK NOW?!?!? HNNNNGH DHFADSLKJ. Kay so like I bought the first Professor Layton game forever ago. FOREVER. And because he's one hard ass mother fucker, I put the game down. Well I got a lot of time on my hands at work, AND I WAS LIKE IT TAKES ME LIKE, ONE HOUR TO SOLVE A PUZZLE SO YUP PROFESSOR LAYTON WELCOME TO MY WORKPLACE.
And I beat it. I was.... shocked... I actually beat all the puzzles I found. I'm missing maybe 10 all together, which I'm beating fairly quickly. RIEKA WHEN WE GO SHOPPING TOMORROW, HELP ME FIND THE SECOND GAME!
Omg anyways THIS GIRL. FUCK. JESUS. FUCK. JESUS FUCK. MOOOOOOOOOE. /////// ;____; I had to draw her. Uhhh she's "Mystery Girl." Kay come off it, it's so obvious who she is BUT FOR THE SAKE OF PEOPLE WHO HAVEN'T PLAYED I WON'T STATE THE MYSTERY BEHIND HER.
Lol revisited Remi and Milo in modern clothes! :c I was not happy with Milo's weird body over there wtf. LOL I'M TIRED AND LAZY TO COLOR NOW FHDSKLFDSFJH WTF. /DOUBLEFACEPALMPLZ
omg too tired to continue with life. /dies/ NIIIIGHT.
Tee hee been wearing my contacts at least once a day since I got them to get used to wearing them! I really hope I can get used to putting them in! >___< I have a lot of troubles getting the left one in! I keep blinking it out!
Viv; ;____; Eeeee lol, thank you! I was quite happy with Sailor Moon! SHE'S MY HOMIE FOR REALS.
Omgomgomg SHOW ME NOW. So cuuuuuuuute. ;________; I want to at least design my girl! It's so weird, she has a cap now AND IT CHANGED MY HAIR COLOR AND STYLE WTF. LOL. Are you planning on making them as characters in game as well!? *____* I want to try to make my elven boy, and maybe a third character if I can figure out what else I wanna try!
LOLOLOL THIS IS GOOD NEWS TO KNOW. /EYE ZOOMS AT ALL THEIR SLEEVES/ And tee hee I don't doubt it for a second! *____* I had imagined the girl I designed being a loner and a little punk, doing what she has to~! Maybe something cool like a bounty hunter! EEEEE. /JUST WATCHED COWBOY BEBOP KAY
Didn't know what to draw so I went with randomizer! 8) Today not crack though, I paired up a bunch of pairings/duos that make sense and randomized them. Rieka randomized some situations and thus here we go! Levi and Lunon were a pairing, and they got the situation "going to school/school uniforms." * v* So I went more with going home, lol, BUT WHATEVS. LUNON'S LITTLE CRUSH ON HIM WOULD BE PRETTY CUTE IN A SCHOOL SETTING~
Alyssa and Rimo came up next, and their situation they got was "watching the clouds." :c Lol well since the first one was cutesy I kinda just kept the theme up! There's really not much to say to this. Oh I liked Rimo's face, lol.
Anyways Remi and Milo got their situation, thankfully nothing questionable! Wearing modern clothes. :C Too bad I was hella fat and lazy and didn't feel like giving them full bodies! This coulda been a lot nicer! Lol.
Aaaand Sedric and Ratri got the scene "epic fight," WHICH MIGHT ACTUALLY COME TRUE CAN YOU TELL I'M LAZY AND TIRED BY NOW?! :c So anyways yeah. Ratri being her fickle demon self surprisingly has no trouble with this sort of thing. I don't mean killing. She could legitimately like you, perhaps even love you, and still turn on you if she feels it's what she needs- or even, wants- to do.
Rest of the pairings and the situations I was too tired to do:
Levi/Rimo - dying in arms
Lunon/Sedric - cosplay
Levilika/Lunon - sharing an umbrella
Rimo/Sedric - yandere
Dimitri/Ratri -tsundere
Levilika/Rimo - reading a book to
I'MMA DIE NIIIIGHT
Gaaah guys, my contacts came in! orz;; Now to actually... try to look... pretty. /so insecure about looks/ I honestly think I look a million times uglier in pictures than I do in actuality. Some days I look in the mirror and I'm happy with myself. I take a picture, and think "is that what people see or is it just the way the camera captured my shadows and looks?"
8( Idk. I also can't smile on command. Every smile you see that looks decent, it was a genuine smile. Otherwise my cheeks get big and puffy trying to figure out how to smile without feeling the need to. orz;; Idk. Gah. Sometimes I'm just really insecure about my looks, especially knowing the people around me and even online friends are a million times prettier!
Viv; ;_____; Eeee thank you, I just hope it prints well! ;____; /has to run back to Staples as I said in the stream HDKFLDJAF/ Lol I never played the second one! xD LOL OMG. DAMN. XD We started at like, 12pm my time! IT WAS ADDICTING though hard since we get different quests! >:C And I figured out I can't use the swords you gave me, I have to use ~daggers~ LOL WTF. LIKE THERE'S A BIG DIFFERENCE. A SHANK'S A SHANK. /SHANKS IRISONLINE KAY?/ EEEE LOL MAKE HIM PLAY. WE'LL HAVE A ~PARTY OF ASS KICKERS~! xD Omg I have like. Two mouse...s... mice...? LOL AND YET I USE NEITHER. Tee hee d'awww and thank you! xD
Aaaaand finished another keychain! c: Tee hee, Sailor Moon! Eeeeeeeeks I gotta finish the rest and make more! ; v;
WELP this is what happens when I can't think of anything to draw. 8( I design. Basic concepts for maybe future OCs. So yup, he's just a design and nothing else. Maybe I'll use him as a base later on~! I really just wanted an OC that has his jacket around his shoulders like that. 8)
WELL I didn't think I'd design anything I was remotely happy with. Lol kinda like this girl. Originally she didn't have shorts, they were panties, LOLOLOL but for the sake of her I changed it. :c If I keep her as an OC (where the hell is she going? She fits in no stories! TIME TO MAKE ONE UP!) she might get the panties instead of the shorts, lol. I almost made her blond but then she'd have the same attitude looking problem as Vivi, which now that I think about it, BOTH GOT STREAKS IN THEIR HAIR~! LOL. I guess I like my bad asses with streaks? xD
LOL KAY RIEKA WANTS TO SEE MY BLOG BEFORE SHE SLEEPS AND I'M TIRED TOO SO NIIIIIIIGHT.
OMAI ANYBODY KNOW WHAT IRIS ONLINE IS? BESIDES YOU, VIV, LOL.
Eeeee it's so fun, lol! * v*)/ I played with Viv today for like. Omg prolly 7 hours or something like that Jesus Christ. It's really cute and fun! And you can make multiple characters on the same account it looks like! I had a hard time choosing everything. My class, my species, MY GENDER.
c: In the end I'm a female hyrbid ranger. I HAVE LITTLE ANIMAL EARS AND USE A GUN FUCK YEAH. /really wanted that gun lololol/ If I get around to it, I wanna make a male elf ranger! c: ANYWAYS~!
I'm finally coloring the keychains! ;;; Eeeeee lol, this is Rena, I figured she'd be first to be done since she was first to be drawn! I'm going to do test prints on her later this week at Staples! * v*)/ I hope all goes well!
It just didn't feel right without Rika, so here she is! 8> She's also gonna be test printed with Rena! I was kinda happy with her hair. I gotta fix that nipa~ ;;;; It's not very cute looking! If I get to make them into keychains, I'll take pics!
Omg I actually did it. I COLORED SORA'S HAIR DNHKAVJDLHFKDSJF. /HAPPYPLZ/ Never again, boy, never again...
Omg and lastly this doodle. Spawned from a convo that I shall summarize between me and Rieka:
Roi: I think Rina would want to go to the fair! She'd ask Miles to go with her!
Rieka: Miles wouldn't want to go. But (in the middle of typing)
Roi: Aw, that's too bad. Rina would ask Damien or Vince to go with her then!
Rieka: (finished typing) he'd try to take her some place quieter, like, idk, ask her to feed the ducks with him or something! Or that. He's gonna go hang himself now. :c
LOL THIS NEW, TRUER TO THE ORIGINAL PERSONALITY DESIGN OF MILES WILL PROLLY CONTINUE TO BLOW MY MIND as to how sweet (albeit awkward) he is. :c Wasn't sure how to draw him since. Like. Idk how he's gonna act. Even deep into their relationship, would he still be... awkward around Rina? WOULD THEY EVEN. LIKE. GET TO THEIR RELATIONSHIP SINCE NOW THEY'RE BOTH SUPER AWKWARD PEOPLE? Omg Alicia help them. /facepalm relying on the single 12 year old for relationship help
KAY I SHOULD SLEEP NIIIIIGHT. And omg. Rieka. Yet again. LOL WHAT IS GOING ON IS YOU BEING SUPER CREEPY SPIED ON BY ~THE EYES OF HER~? :c /curious curious curious
I don't want to go to the dentist tomorrow!
I feel horrible about it, honestly. I have some shitty ass teeth. I need like, 4 root canals, five if you count the one I got last year. We can't afford to get all my teeth taken care of. Per year, my insurance will only cover $1,000, which sounds like a lot. But a root canal is like. $800 or something like that. A crown is $900 or something. Which each tooth with a root canal requires the crown.
I have two teeth that have gotten root canals, neither of which have a crown. I got a root canal this year. The dentist said if I don't get them crowned ASAP, I'll lose the teeth and they'll have to extract the entire thing and give me fakes. So now my mom is going ahead and getting me a crown tomorrow. But we don't have the money for it.
She's using the money she's saving up for a car. You know. The one I was driving and wrecked. She just said "Well, Kelly, we'll just have to ask the Lord to help us now." She doesn't blame me for draining so much money. But I beat myself up over it. I know I didn't cause the accident. The woman ran the red light, and because her car was huge and mine was a compact, her's didn't get a scratch and my mom's car wasn't worth repairing.
And now here she is, a single mom supporting two kids. People think we're well off. We're not. We just make choices, sacrifices, and gauge what we do with our money. We saved for a house for maybe.... 7 years before we got one. And we only got this house because we qualified for a program for poor people. :c Believe it or not.
So I beat myself up over the amount of money I drain. I'd rather not that my mom wastes our precious money on something as useless as my teeth. I don't care about them! Not when it gets in my mom's way of getting what she deserves. I'd rather they rot out and I cry in pain than have to waste what little she was able to save up between all the bills. It's not fair. Why do bad things continue to happen?
I don't get it. What did we do to deserve this? Is this payback because of my dad? We were the victims. So it's not fair if we're getting hit by what he deserved to get hit by. I guess it could be worse. I could have been an orphan right now otherwise. I should be thankful my mom survived. Still though, she shouldn't have survived that day to put up with this bullshit.
Then we go and lose our apartment because, well, it was a crime scene and frankly living in an apartment with the number "666" plastered on your door. It was... a very dark and creepy apartment. Lots of unexplained things. We move in with my grandma. For like. Five years. Finally get a new apartment. Finally got a house. Lose car. Between that, the draining of my college funds and all my failures. I have a GPA of like, 2.0 or something now. What happened? I was practically a 4.0 student. Where did I go wrong? Why do I burden her? Do I do this to everybody around me? It's constantly nagging at the back of my head. And it really pisses me off. I have to get my shit together. No more fooling around. Clearly the way I'm leading my life isn't good enough. So it's time I make some changes.
ANYWAYS. >:C Now that that's over. Stupid dentist. I hope you realize the angst you're putting me through.
AAAnd now some shitty sketches. I was originally going to make this a much bigger piece, and it was going to feature all the characters in this particular story and how they all connect. All the characters connect back to Ratri or Dimitri. Hence why they were drawn first, at the top. Ideally, the rest of them would be under the two, connected by a string. That's why their index fingers are pointed out, they were going to be tied to those fingers.
BUUUUUT I GOT LAZY. 8D
A WIP of another keychain. Ed, from FMA. I really hate this keychain. :C Look at it. IT'S SO UGLY DHFKLDSAHFDJKSF. /bashes head into wall
KAY I'M TIRED NIGHT.
:c I dun wanna go to work tomorrow! Also wtf, I'm being such a woman right now, I'm having some food cravings like crazy! /really wants a cup of ramen
Six; Uuuugh I think I'm just too sheepish for my own good, I get stepped on by other people a lot and let it slide every time. ;;; D'awww but thank you so much! I'm not really angry at anybody who tries to emulate styles, I used to emulate CLAMP and Sailor Moon's style till I felt I could deviate away a little and try my own stuff out! I'm not one for tracing in any way, but I think referencing art is actually pretty helpful. >___
Viv; j vj Tee hee I look forward to it then! HNNNNGH REALLY? ;;;; LOL YOU CAN TELL WHAT'S GOING ON IN MY SKETCHES? KLJFASF. /lol wonders if anybody can make sense of her sketches/ *_____* Tee hee d'awww thanks~! ALYSSA WAS PRETTY CUTE THOUGH IN MY HEAD SHE'S A TSUNDEEERE. Especially for Ron Weasley Dennis, her childhood friend. 8D
Tee hee SO I DID A LIVESTREAM TODAY DHALKFHDSKFJ IT WAS AWESOME. 8D And since I'm always crack pairing mine and Rieka's OCs, often to songs, I decided to try it out with mine, Viv's and Yume's OCs since they were in the LS with me! 8D We all randomly picked OCs.
Viv's Kyla to the left, Yume's Takun in the middle, and my Rina to the right. TO THE SONG "I DON'T CARE" BY FALL OUT BOY. 8D LOL. They dun care at all atm THEY'RE TOO BUSY IN THEIR LOVE HOTEL AWWWW YEAH.
And next on the livestream was more cracked threesomes! 8D LOL. Yume's Kitayo to the left, my Milo in the middle and Viv's Adelaide to the right! Kitayo is gonna get her freak on and is going after Milo first, he scoots away in fear/embarrassment and he gropes Adelaide on accident. HILARITY AND SEXINESS ENSUE.
The song they got was Testify from Rise Against the Machine LOLOLOLOL.
TEE HEE LAST THING I DREW ON LS AND PIN JOINED US BY THEN~! Yume's May to the left, Viv's Vivienne next to her, Pin's Meguka with the big boobs there and my Yukina being flat chested all the way to the right. 8D Lol the song was Saku Sakura or something like that, idk, the OP to Love Hina, LOL. SO THUS THE HOT SPRINGS AWWWW YEAH.
Btw May over there is gonna kill them all tonight. :c LOL. YANDERES.
Um okay I can't really explain this. :c Lol. Matt.
KAY I'M TIRED. :C NIGHT GUYS.
Viv; DO IIIIIT. Lol that's why I start my blog when I first start drawing and update it slowly as I go! 8D It's 9:51pm right now, but when I post this it'll be like, 1am! EEEEE GIVE THEM TO MEEEE. ;;;; /has been craving candy and sweets/ 8D D'awww so cute, I've always loved outfits like that but I never made a male OC who would fit that imagery! ;;;; Really? I was so pissed at this Miku I drew. DHFLKSDJF /WANTED TO TRASH IT SO BAD AND RIKA TOO FOR THAT MATTER WHY DID I CONTINUE THEM DHFALKDSJF!?/ Eeeee you can tell I'm lazy 99% of the time because that's when I use thick lines. 8D Thin lines mean I wasn't lazy. /ie commissions, art trades, lol etc/
OH UHH. I WAS WATER COLOR TOOL AND THIS... TOOL... I CUSTOMIZED MYSELF... UH... IT ONLY BLENDS IF THERE'S COLOR "UNDER" IT? Idk tomorrow I plan on livestreaming so if you're there I'll show it off! c: OH MAI RIEKA NEEDS TO DECIDE MORE ON HER ALYSSA LOL. :c We've been RPing Rimo and Alyssa since other than Dimitri and Ratri, he's the only one that can see her. THOUGH THAT IN ITSELF IS A HUGE CLUE AS TO HIS TRUE IDENTITY AND REALITY OH MAI.
Okay I think it's time for a rant. Viv, you might think I mean you because of all the annoying yaoi talk, but I honestly don't. This is waaaay before I had met you and I'm talking about somebody completely different. Nonetheless the words still nag at me, and, well, JUST HIGHLIGHT/COPY+PASTE THE TEXT AND YEAH HUGE POST TODAY:
If there's one thing I'm insecure about, it's my OCs. My style is very cute and moe, right? It doesn't suit boys at all. Especially back then. I understand girl's outfits and can do a lot more with girls better than I can guys, it's only natural I want to work more with girls, right? And yet I used to get bashed by somebody I considered close at the time for "always drawing girls."
In the back of my mind, I always thought, What do you care? It's my art, I should be free to draw what I like and who I want! Right? I'm not being a bad guy by drawing what I like and want, it's not even bothering anybody now is it?
It's obvious I love moe and cute things. I'm sorry, okay? I really am. I'm sorry I like adorable girls and enjoy drawing them and making them. So sue me. Why get up in my face about it? It makes me draw more inside my shell.
And then I noticed something. She loved yaoi. A lot. Which is perfectly fine, honestly I see het, yaoi and yuri all on the same plane. Quite frankly, so long as the pairing makes sense then I'll probably ship it, regardless of gender. It just so happens a lot of god damn series make it point that some characters aren't gay, some hate each other, etc, etc. Like Izaya and Shizuo for example. They despise each other. Why the fuck am I going to ship them? Seriously? Relationship-wise, it makes no sense! Kyo and Yuki from Fruits Basket? Uh. Hello, they hate each other! I can't ship it!
If two dudes say more than "hi" to each other, I GUARANTEE YOU SOMEBODY WILL SHIP THEIR DICKS TOGETHER. This isn't so much a rule of yuri, but I digress, that's a whole 'nother post ranting at the hentai audience. Here's my poorly put together example:
I don't ship Hinata and Naruto. I can't. If you take Hinata's crush out of the equation, they become a crack pairing. Naruto hardly even realizes she exists. Hinata only noticed him because he was the underdog who fought back and she looked to him for inspiration. When I saw how protective Kiba was of Hinata, I thought it was cute- didn't ship it yet! When I saw how much they relied on each other, and how clear it was those two spoke (while not to ignore that Kiba and Shino obviously talk! also the fact Hinata can hardly talk to Naruto!), the idea of their relationship progressing was adorable.
This sums up my general feelings towards any pairing. Regardless of gender. The closest I've ever got to shipping any two dudes would be Seto and Crow from Fragile Dreams, but it wasn't even romantic feelings either had and Crow's a god damn robot guys. Wasn't Crow just trying to validate feelings or some shit like that? Proving human worth? Something like that, I don't even remember. In the end, I couldn't do it. Because he was a robot. Maybe if he were human, I might've looked past it and thought at the very least, they'd be cute companions with potential, had the game made Crow a partner and all that fun stuff.
So no, believe it or not, yaoi doesn't affect my decision in shipping a couple. It's how plausible and how much I enjoy the relationship on a romantic level. It just so happens most series completely obliterate the idea of yaoi. I mean, c'mon guys, Keiichi/Satoshi? Really? Now you're just being douche bags and taking the only (attractive) males of the series and forcing them to fuck.
Now lets go back to OCs. And the girl topic. I was like. Really? Look at my OCs. There's not a single lesbian OC. If anything, I have at least 2 confirmed gay male OCs, one technical yaoi couple, and another potential one. And yet. No lesbian OCs or yuri couples. Anywhere. And you have the audacity to complain to me about how I hate yaoi?
It's because of her I get irritated easily of yaoi. It's because of her I notice how much more closer I get into inspecting my favorite pairings. It's because of her I have no faith in my male OCs. This is why yaoi is a touchy subject for me. I've tried reading yaoi series, trust me, I have. They end up in sex. Usually drunken or forced sex. I'm not exactly moved in my heart and in fact, I was a little disturbed reading them- the forced one that is. Maybe I just ended up reading the wrong couple of series. Who knows. Either way, you can't say I didn't try and aren't trying.
It absolutely irks me when somebody complains how much they hate "het" or "yuri" or even "yaoi." "I won't watch Junjou Romantica because there's gay guys." And here I thought decent people cared about a plot. And genres. "I hate Twilight because everybody else does." Jesus Christ guys. SMH.
Seriously. I know there's a shit ton of yaoi fans, especially compared to the yuri fans. In terms of respectable yaoi fans to the amount of yuri fans though, there's about the same amount of people on both sides.
All in all. I'm insecure about my OCs, I hate my cute style, I hate the fact that I enjoy what I do, because I get bashed for liking it. Because my opinion and feelings are wrong. I hate the fact that because I'm not a yaoi fan, I'm a horrible person, that I'm closed minded. Don't you dare tell me I'm closed minded. Trust me. I've dated a guy. I've dated a girl for two years. Don't you fucking tell me I'm closed minded about jack shit. I'll find my voice and my opinions, and nobody is going to stop me. If you don't agree with me, take your bull shit and find somebody who will whine with you, because it's not going to be me.
All of this is relevant. The person who mentally antagonized me is coming back into my life, and will probably underhandedly try to bash me, my OCs, my preferences, and my pairings all over again.
One other thing that always bothered me about her. I'm not kidding when I say "this looks like shit" in my artist's comments. I see the problems, guys, it's not perfect. And she used to really say "you're just saying that for attention." Excuse me? Asking for attention? You're one to talk. I'm being legit and honest with every word I say, whether you think I'm fucking around or not. I'm a highly insecure person, I'm not stating that my appearance or my art looks like shit to fish for compliments, I'm stating it because I feel if I say it before somebody else gets to, it'll soften the blow. Believe it or not, I'm easily hurt. I don't give a fuck, online people have made me cry before. I'm a super emotional and sensitive person. Sorry you think I'm just fishing for attention. I'm just trying to reach the insult before anybody else gets to. Got it?
Augh sorry guys. It's been bothering me in the back of my mind over the past like, month. I had to let it out somewhere. It's just come to the point where I've become silent about the newest series I'm watching, my newest favorite characters, my newest favorites pairings, anything really. And I have no intentions of talking about anything I'm into as of late that I haven't already mentioned in the past in fear that I might regret it later.
I had half a mind to just delete all that I typed right now in fear I'll regret typing this at all. But hey. These are my feelings and how I feel. So is it wrong? Is it wrong that this is how I've come to protect myself from people telling me I'm wrong about my opinions and my likes?
ANNNNNYWAYS~! Enough of my ranting. :c I coulda added a lot more that was more personal/work related but I already ranted to Rieka SO YOU WERE SPARED.
I REALLY HATE THE PLAID ON HER SKIRT SHDFKLJDSHFJDK IT DIDN'T MAKE SENSE WHEN I TRIED TO DO IT DHFKLAJDHF. /usually doesn't have problems with plaid/
:c Anyways finished the chibi of Alyssa from Clock Tower 3! Oh man I love this game so much. All the murderers were so brutal, I loved it! I can't decide which scared me the most. I feel bad for Alyssa having to fight them all, though... alone. /HUGS THAT POOR GIRL
Doing some crack pairings to songs now! Remi and Ratri got paired up... again... o_o
Done to "The Small Print" by Muse. *____* Which is super ironic considering it's about a man who made a pact with the Devil. I wonder what Remi made a contract over...
and i'm bending the truth, you're to blame, for all the life that you'll lose
That statement has a lot more relevance then you realize.
So Lunon and Levilika got paired up with the song "Perfect" by Smashing Pumpkings. Which as far as my interpretation skills go, sounds like a lovely story of a couple who broke up and are slowly fading away from each other, not even able to stay friends. So... LOL.
Anyways I used same lyrics I pulled out to make this work.
memories unwind, so far, i still know who you are
you know you're just like me
While these girls' plight isn't exactly the same, they both are carrying heavy baggage. So long as their memories allow them, they realize they know who the other is. They're exactly the same though, something's just not right.
Oh Sweet Jesus. LOL. Okay so Brigette and Dimitri got paired up, you know, the demon and the demon hunter. Both are pretty cold, too. So I was like. I CAN PROLLY DO SOMETHING BAD ASS WITH THESE TWO FUCK YEAH. Get my shuffle going. YOU AND ME BY LIGHTHOUSE COMES ON. W. T. F. LOVE SONG. DHFLKSJADF. Lol.
:c So I tried to make this... ambiguous?
'cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do, nothing to prove
and i don't know why, but i can't keep my eyes off of you
While on base appearances, it can be cute and sappy, i-it can be a little more ambiguous, right!? Right down to it, they stand on the total opposites of each other. And yet neither have anything to prove, especially to the other.
The staring part is easy enough to explain, of course at least Brigette would stare, she can probably tell he's a demon, she's just not as good or positive at identifying if shes' right or not!
Sedric and Milo got paired up, and finally with a happy song! Long Beach Nightmare by Puffy AmiYumi! I have no idea what this song's about, so I just used the English title with the overall feel of the song. It's very cute and laid back~!
So I stuck them on a beach with a nightmare behind them. :c And their dumb asses would be too happy showing off their little sand castle to notice a god damn shark behind them.
Rimo and Alyssa ironically got paired together, and with the song Magnet of all things! I find it ironic on all sorts of levels.
c: I used a base btw because I'm a lazy sonova- click here for the base
Tee hee actually Rimo ending up in a Vocaloid song is very ironic! c: He was inspired by a Vocaloid song, but not Magnet!
Aaaand (male) Levi is all alone and got a song to himself! :c LOL. He got Sour Girl by Stone Temple Pilots.
she was a sour girl the day that she met me, she was a happy girl the day that she left me
he was so happy on the day that he met her
Okay time for some depressing! Levilika and Levi are twins. The town didn't know about this, because Levi was born much smaller and sicker than his twin sister. He was kept from public eye, and steadily grew into a healthy boy. When he was healthy enough, he was able to meet his sister for the first time.
It's not that Levilika resents him, but there's definitely something she knows about him that he doesn't. Is it about his illness? Will he make her sick? He can't help but want to be with his elder and only sister, but if he continues to follow her, will it be a regrettable mistake?
So I moved to mine and Rieka's PKMN ocs! 8> Yurimi and Dad ended up together, lol, super crack. They got Second Chance by Shinedown.
Which they both need second chances.
Yurimi's body is very weak and sickly. It's a very real possibility that she could get a cold and just never wake up again.
David needs a second chance in just life. He made bad decisions, and as a result his only little girl is dead. And he'll stop at nothing to bring her back.
sometimes good bye is a second chance
this is my one and only voice, so listen close, it's only for today
Lol so Violet and Koumi got paired up! 8) Super crack. To make my life harder, they got the song Handlebars by Flobots. :C LOL. SO.
Here's them trying to ride their bikes without using the handlebars. Violet would straight up just fall over and Koumi's would explode. :C
So Aubrey and Jamie got paired up, wtf, lol. The song Hold Me by Weezer was their pick, and I think it really suits Aubrey. She's a very lonely girl, really all she has is Koumi in the world considering she knows their adopted dad, David, doesn't care as much about them as he does his own dead daughter.
Yeah but no Jamie's really random. o_o He really will only ever meet Kara, Ryoji, Gage, Yurimi and Kouhei.
Sooo another crack pairing I've done before via randomizer. o_o Sayori and Sam, which makes no sense 'cause she's dead. 8D
They got the song Sliver by Nirvana. LOL BASED OFF THIS LYRIC
grandma take me home
SO NOW. SAM IS GRANDMA. LOLOLOL.
Lol so Kouhei and Maci got paired up, with the song Super Mario Hyadain! Kouhei rescuing Princess Maci~!
So Leon and Aster got paired up, lol, finally something that makes sense! They got Learn to Fly from Foo Fighters! I think it suits them enough~
think i need a devil to help me get things right, hook me up a new revolution, cause this one is a lie
i'm looking to the sky to save me
fly along with me, i can't quite make it alone
There were a couple more, but I think more than anything, these two needed to be saved and given a real home. They're become dark people.
Aaaaand Kara and Ryoji got paired up together! Which makes more sense than anything else here, LOL, WHICH SAYS A LOT 'CAUSE A COUPLE OF THEM MAKE TOTAL SENSE. The love birds got Toki Ni Ai Wa, which is from the Utena soundtrack.
And thus the royal theme! 8)
EEEEEE GONNA DO MORE TOMORROW I'M UBER TIRED. NIGHT ERREBODY. LOL.
Well, the good news is I feel emotionally better. Easily irritated, but much better! I brushed off all the annoying things. :c God work is gonna kill me.
The bad news? orz;; I-I think I got the flu. It started last night, I tried to sleep at 8pm when I got offline. My nose was oddly stuffed but I was in such a bad mood I didn't care. Whenever I'd start to fall asleep, I'd stop breathing- I'm a nose breather. :c So I'd wake up gasping for air.
This morning I woke up to a runny nose and thought nothing of it. There's fans going, it's summer, and while I rarely get a runny nose from fans since mine are on all seasons of the year (orz I get hot easy kay?), I figured it had to happen once in a while. I noticed I still felt weirdly tired and groggy, as well as couldn't focus at all.
My flus and colds always, always start with sneezing first, coughing later. The sneezes started. I thought, 'eh, allergies.' My body has also been aching. However now with an upset stomach and the fact that my allergies don't act like that (sinus headaches, anybody?), I've come to realize I think I got sick. orz;;;
A freebie I did while lurking the freebies forum on Gaia~ :c Trying to motivate myself to draw! Belongs to Atomo Panda so no touching, yeah?
Aaaand finally getting back into doing my keychains! orz;; I think I should start coloring them to test out printing and shit! AHHH IT'S COMING SO FAST HDSLFKJDF.
I will be forced to give my body to anybody who knows who this girl is and where she's from. :c But it's highly doubtful anybody will know her at all.
This is Mashiro, which is an uber cute name and I plan on using for an OC! >8) She's from the Bloody Roar manga, titled Bloody Roar: The Fang. It's uber hard to find, I got off lucky buying the whole series in a single big volume, lol, I'm pretty sure it was only two books long. I also have the first volume by itself, I bought that years before I found the big all-in-one-book!
She's supposed to be inspired by Alice from the games, and I think she's pretty cute honestly. :c Pretty tsundere too, if you ask me! Though she's much gentler to Fang than a normal tsundere would be to their target of affection. Mashiro here usually attacks him when he shows interest in other girls it would seem. I wish I understood Japanese.
And I was able to squeeze in one more keychain tonight! Rena was kinda lonely by herself, so I threw in Rika for good measure! c: God her hair, lol, I couldn't find a decent color for it! I'm personally more of a fan of the dark greyish-blue hair for her, but I lightened it with less grey~! Mostly so you can see her dress better, lol. :c
Aaaand a wip of a chibi I was doing while waiting for some downloads! c: I'll love anybody that knows who this is, though it's hard to tell without color. Alyssa from Clock Tower 3! I thank this girl and this game for a lot.
Without it, Rieka and I never would have came up with the "Clock Tower" AU, which is only in Nathan and Tori's story. Namely, it was dedicated to the sibling bosses toward the end of the game. We talked about how Rina was Alyssa, Damien was the brother and Chloe was the sister. Long story short, in the AU, we wondered what would happen if Vince never became a villain and stayed with Crystal, and instead Damien and Chloe were enlisted by Matsui and his group.
That changes so much. Crystal may never die in this AU, Chris actually has a father rather than a replacement father. Damien would never fall in love with Rina- not easily, anyways. Vince, Crystal and Chris may all move in together, alleviating how many people live in Kioni's house, which makes everybody a bit happier. I mean come on, like, 8 people living in one 2 bedroom house? Maybe 3? It's a little too much. They get on each other's nerves.
In fact everybody might be happier if Damien and Chloe never came to Nathan and Tori's side... How depressing is that!
ANNNYWAYS GOOD NIGHT MY DEARS MKAAAY?
